As a child of only two or three years old, I hated my reflection in the mirror. "If only I had blond hair," I thought. "Then I could be beautiful."
Almost twenty years later, I remembered those viscious thoughts with sorrow and regeret. I began to reflect upon the mass media images of women who looked like me: the "firey," "spicy" Latina to whom I did not relate--the "bad girl" I never wanted to be.
I wondered about the women who played these characters and how they felt about themselves and the ways they were presented for public consumption. In this self-portraiture project, I put on their personas as attempt to understand them as the people behind celebrity--and to understand my own relationship to them and their characters who so impacted my own self-perception. (35mm and medium-format film, varying emulsions)
Lupe Velez, Headshot
Rita Moreno, West Side Story
El Suicidio de Lupe Velez Lupe Velez, Suicide
Dolores del Rio
Autoretrato con pelo largo (o con pelo como Salma Hayek...) Self-Portrait With Long Hair (Or With Hair Like Salma Hayek)
Lupe Velez Coming to America
Lupe Velez, Press Photo 1
Lupe Velez, Tabloid Photo (Recreation from LA Times Entertainment Section)
Lupe Velez, Press Photo 2